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"sometimes we dont need a helping hand — we just need a holding hand…"

i believe that everyone needs a holding hand. a hand not to push you forward or to pull you up, but a hand that will simply be there to make its presence felt even when you’re stuck in weird situations. especially when you’re stuck in weird situations.

i’m sure you’re familiar with those days when it seems as if the whole world is into some horrible conspiracy to ensure that everything goes haywire in your safe little corner. well, this is one of those days. and NOW is one moment when i need someone to be here with me. someone who will take the flak and sh*t with me, someone who won’t run when i’m trapped in a rut, someone who will take Life’s punches and blows with me. i don’t need someone who’d say "awww, baby i know how you feel…. here’s a hug..", but someone who still can’t speak because he has been hit and is bleeding as much as i am.

i look down and realize that we’re still holding hands. there is value in staying put and staying still. with each other.

it’s would have been easy to say "i give up. this is too much for me to handle!", and just run as fast as i can towards the opposite direction. instead, we chose to say, "if this is part of being with you and staying in love with you and loving you more, then i’m taking it." not because we’re the next candidates for martyrdom, but because we know that loving the other person means going through Life with each other — whatever Life means, whatever Life hurls at us.

sometimes, it’s more bad than good. like today. and there’s nothing much we can do.

except hang on, close our eyes, and hope that the next tide brings us something better. and to hold each other’s hand and cheer each other on.

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a conversation from the recent past comes to mind.

"hold my hand, don’t let go… i’ll take you somewhere far. a fantasy place. where we can laugh all day, where we are untouched by worries. come with me, say yes…"

"i’ve been holding your hand. di mo lang napapansin."

and then i knew.

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someone once said: when crossing the street (or going out into the world), stay close together and hold hands.

may you find that one person to hold hands with, and may you sincerely enjoy holding hands.