let my silence speak for me. let my unspoken words reverberate through the boundless space that hugs us. ask me not what my thoughts are, for i need the stillness to suppress the furious agitation curdling from the wellsprings of my desperation.
ask me not what my thoughts are — i am made mute by the virtue of decision. find comfort in the fact that i do not allow my restless words to infiltrate the rickety barriers surrounding your indecisiveness. and so, in feigned quietude, i shall watch you walk away, back to the path you chose to take at the beginning of your journey.
ask me not what my thoughts are — let the uncontrollable shaking of my body as you attempt to cushion the tremors tell you about my anguish. let my traitorous tears narrate to you the dull ache i feel as i recognize the face of loss.
ask me not what my thoughts are — let the creases on my face reveal to you my fears. allow the little wrinkles at the edges of my sad smile convey my apprehensions and worries as to how the first few weeks, months without you would be for me. let the pleats on my brows as i struggle to hold the dam up declare my dread of not seeing you again.
ask me not what my thoughts are — the glint in my eyes describe the joy i feel as i spend the remaining hours with you. don’t ask me "what’s with that look?" whenever you catch me staring at you, for i am merely etching a vivid memory of you, to hold ever so dear whenever i feel the pangs of longing. just as i deeply breathe in the scent of your shirts that you let me wear; i try to have my fill by memorizing every intricate detail, drinking down to the last drop so i wouldn’t feel parched and lacking. the countdown has long begun.
ask me not what my thoughts are — permit my hands to talk to you about holding on. my firm grasps articulate my reluctance to let go. feel that my tight embraces mean more than wanting to be physically entwined to you; it is my way of allowing my heart to speak directly to yours in the hushed tones of the soul.
ask me not what my thoughts are — bestow upon me the dignity to gracefully concede defeat in a battle i haven’t fought. accord me that little field where my desperate reflections and i can roam freely without fear or embarrassment of having meandered too much; let me have this, for you have conquered all.
let my silence speak for me. let my speechlessness be my final act of love. my unspoken words might barrel through your irresolution; i would like for you to discover by yourself where your bliss lies. so, ask me not. allow the noiselessness to envelop you; and perhaps, when you hold me as i cry, when you read between the lines of my smiles, when you see that faint glimmer reflected in my eyes, and when you weave your fingers through mine, you just might hear what i am not saying.
and finally before i send you off, i am letting my silence speak for me. let it talk about hope, and the pain of waiting for that which might never come.
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lei,melodies can calm ur darkest fears and insecurities.sweet words can sweep and take u to places u always dreamed of.but they remain jus dat unless ’songer’ proves you wrong
mukhang tama nga c regina =)
pano ko naging tama holtz? madami ko nasabi….arf arf
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you guys are too quick to judge… i am sitting this one out. and because you haven’t been immersed in the sitch, i surmise you don’t know how i feel. but as my friends, and as third party witnesses, i appreciate your support. a lot. love wins, guys, it always does. so wherever this love wind blows, i am going to be cool with it. thing is, i have felt the wind. =)
“sweet words can sweep and take u to places u always dreamed of.” << and holtz, yeah you’re right. *winks* i have experienced this first hand.. hahahahaha!!!
memories of the death lies not just six feet under or in an urn on your shelf, it may not speak of the silence that collects the dust as time wears down and the present seems so old. it matures over the tears that has been shed from the wounds that killed the oblivion. it may not be destined to be remembered but the scars remain as we fade into the uncertainty. it will not scream of rejection as its thoughts that cries out of denial, will soon realize that the ashes that pours out along with the wind will be heard when the silence hits the ground…
soooo morbid. gives me the shivers. what’s up with you, joehl?
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